Were now 6 weeks into the DTS I am staffing. I am daily being blown away and encouraged by the way that God is revealing Himself to the students on our school.. My passion in life has always been to encourage people and see people grow and its incredibly honouring when you get to do the thing you are passionate about every single day of your life. My heart leaps for joy when I think of what is to come and everything God is going to do in our lives.
One night this past week as I was worshiping and just sitting in God's presence I began to ask Him the question "Why?". "Why do you want to do this with us?". Lately I have been feeling unworthy of the trust God has bestowed to me. Not in a condemning or unloving way but where I have just been like "Wow God, I can't believe you trust me, I am not worthy of this trust but thank you for believing in me." As I was pondering this "Why?" question and asking God for His reasons behind it I was reminded of the phrase that I have heard plenty of times but never truly understand why God says it. The phrase is "God wants to partner with you." This is such a huge and daunting statement for me. God wants to partner with me? How could this be that the God of the universe, the one who created you and I wants to partner with me? Not in the way of just the huge things we do for God like lead a team across the world to share the gospel but also in the day to day things like sitting in the café talking to the server or going to the shops to pick up some groceries. A lesson that I have been learning recently is dependency. Dependency on others but ultimately dependency on God. For those of you who don't know, I tore a tendon/ligament in my right knee in early July. With an injury like this it is nearly impossible to see full healing in a short period of time, the best thing to do is to stay off of it and let it heal that way. The problem with that is I love being active, I hate just sitting and I am also on a backpacking DTS so were on the trail a good amount of the time. With this being said, I have not seen much healing in it, it is in pain most days and I have to fight sometimes just to walk around all day. Now I know my immeadiate response should be that this sucks and why is this happening to me in this season. Trust me, that is what i feel a lot of the time. In the past few weeks though God has been teaching me something through that pain and what it brings. I have honestly without a doubt (I don't know how, only Jesus) been able to say my knee is a blessing over this past week and half. In the midst of pain and confusion God is teaching me a lesson, a lesson that is vital and shapes a lot of my life. Dependency. I have had to trust those I am involved in ministry with to help carry the load, physically and emotionally. I have had to trust God's ultimate plan and what this is teaching me. I have had to let go of my pride and independency and want to figure things out for myself. I have had to let others take my weight and trust that they do it because they love me not because they are required too. I have had to trust. This journey goes deeper and deeper as the days go by. A huge lesson I have been learning since my journey with God began deepening a year ago has been trust and I recognise that this is not a journey that stops when you've got it all figured out because it doesn't ever get 'all figured out'. This trust is a trust that God will continue to take me deeper into His love and His plan for me. God wants to partner with me. He wants me to take the plans and visions He has for the world out to the world and while doing that He wants me to lean on Him for the support and trust Him for how He will bring those visions into fruition. How incredible is a friend and Father who wants to do everything with us. I want to challenge you all, this isn't just something for me. It isn't that God wants to partner with me because I am a missionary and I travel around to share His good news. No, He wants to partner with everyone because the daily things like raising kids or going to university or whatever you are doing with you life right now are just as important to His plan as what I am doing. You can choose to allow God to walk with you and partner with you wherever you are and I promise that when you do that you will start to see change happen. Don't we all want to chance to change the world? This is your chance, let God take you.
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